Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Stay Tuned!

Sorry I've been such a bum when it comes to posting! Between being home with my family and starting to pack for AZ I haven't had too much time to blog but let me just say, this was The. Best. Christmas. Ever. I'll tell you all about it as soon as I have a free moment. And then I'm going to be sharing a year in pictures and some writings which are pretty special to me. So stay tuned! The next few posts are going to rock your socks off! Because, believe me, this week has definitely rocked off mine! Be back ASAP!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

How Did This Happen?!

Christmas is in 3 days!! What the?!  Where did 2011 go?? I still have yet to finish getting presents for everyone. Yikes. (Or, as they would say in Scooby Doo,  Zoinks!) And today it just hit me...I am going to be flying to Arizona in 9 days. 9. That's single digits. I'm not ready yet...I just got home =/
One of my friends asked me the other day what I was most nervous about...I suppose there are two answers to that. My ridiculous answer? I'm a very confident, loud, outgoing person...but sometimes my inner 5 year old worries...What if I don't fit in? What if they don't like me? I know, I know, *sob sob.* But really, am I the only one who feels that way? I don't think so.
The other thing that makes me nervous is that I don't really know why I'm going. I just have prayed about it a lot and feel like that's what I should be doing. I mean, I know why I'm going logistically, but I don't know Heavenly Father's reasons. I may not know until I get there, I may not know for years after. Yet, I still wonder.
 Am I going to gain more independence?
 Am I going to prepare myself for motherhood? 
Am I going to meet someone?
 Am I going to save up money to go on a mission?
 I just don't know. Maybe all of the above. 
By the way...did I tell you I was considering going on a mission? I might. =) I mean, I'm very strongly considering it. We'll see what I learn from Arizona. I'm just givin' ya'll a heads up...it's a very good possibility that I may not be writing on here for 18 months come next fall. Who knows? Not me. Lots of hardcore praying is in store for this girl.

Monday, December 19, 2011

In Case You Didn't Know...

Shouldn't we all be running out into the streets and kissing strangers now?

Christmas Wish List

So now that I'm officially on break, and Christmas is in 6 days, I figured it was about time to post my Christmas wish list! So here ya'll are. Everything awesome:

More than anything else in this whole world I would love a camera! A good camera. I have a Canon point and shoot and it does a pretty good job but it can't take videos and it doesn't really leave any room for progression and I've discovered that I LOVE photography. I do what I can with my camera but, ya know, that's only so much. So I've done a lot of research over the past few years and have finally decided that a Canon EOS Rebel T3i is the perfect camera for me. It's perfect for beginning SLR photographers but it leaves plenty of room for growth and progression. Considering the fact that I didn't get a birthday present for the last couple of years...and considering the fact that I'm willing to sacrifice gifts for my birthday, Christmas, Easter, Hanukkah, St. Patty's Day,  Thanks-for-not-being-a-mother-yet Day, President's Day, and every other holiday for the next five years...and I'd be willing to pay for half of it...I'm keeping my fingers crossed that maybe Santa would have been feeling super generous and found the beautiful camera cheaper on Black Friday. If not, that's alright. I'll just save money from Arizona and buy it myself. But that's definitely been the number one thing on every list of mine for the last few years. 

Moving on...

A leather-bound writing journal. Omygoodness. I love.

This book by Steve Turner. My friend read it and now I'm super jealous of his extensive knowledge on the Beatles! I love talking to him and learning more and so now I know quite a bit more than your average Joe but...I'd like to read it for myself. Not just be told. 

Anything else to do with The Beatles. (posters,vinyls, cds, shirts,books,etc.)
By the way, did I mention that I bought myself a little Christmas present? I found this beautiful record, actually there's two vinyls in there, for only $25! I love thrifting. So much. And I also talked the owner of the shop down on a poster as well so I got that half price. Score.

Husker sweatpants. Or hoodies. Or jackets. Or just plain ol' shirts. Basically anything Husker, I love.

Shoes. I love shoes. Heels, flats, boots, gladiators, I love them all.
Actually, if we're being honest here, shoes and I have a bit of a love/hate relationship. I love the way they look. I love the way they complete an outfit. I love the way heels make me the average height of a 20 year old rather than an awkward 12 year old boy. Actually, make that an 11 year old. My brother was already taller than me when he was 12. However, if it's summer and warm out I would much rather be barefoot. So we'll say this, if it is winter, shoes and I love each other. If it is summer, my shoes hate me for sending them into hibernation. Right now, though, it's winter so I am DEFINITELY loving shoes.

And since we're on that topic...I'm especially loving these combats boots. Still. Someday, I will own them.

A Polaroid camera would. be. awesome. I know I already have another camera as my number one thing, but this is just something else that I love. And I have two areas for shoes so you just shut your mouth. Anyway, not only would I love to have the picture in my hand right after I took it, but I also love the way Polaroid photos look. So nostalgic. And my sister and I want to decorate our apartment with them next year. Pretty cool, right?

So there ya have it. 
My Christmas wish list.
I say wish because I'm not actually expecting or even asking for these things, I'm just sayin. I like them. A lot. And I wouldn't complain if I found one of them hiding under the tree. 
That'd be really sweet of you, Santa baby.

Friday, December 16, 2011

You Know I'm a Writer By...

My rough drafts. Gosh, they're a mess. But sometimes, out of that heap of chicken scratch, comes a masterpiece.

The pencils which are constantly behind my ear, lost in my hair, in my coat pocket.

The way I watch people. I stand close enough to listen, but far enough to observe. (Like a total creep.)

My purse. Inside it you'll always discover post it notes I've written to myself, a little notebook, and at least 5 different pens/pencils.

The way I personify others. As soon as I see someone, they are immediately given a story. I'm sure most, if not all, of my scenarios are inaccurate but, in my mind, that's who these people become. 

The thoughts bouncing around inside my head. I'm constantly forming a song, a poem, a story, or even a blog post. Truth of the matter is, there are too many. And most of them never make it past a few half-formed sentences.

The books I choose to read. If it's a classic, I want to read it. Afterward I'll give you my honest opinion on whether it deserves all the fuss. (Wuthering Heights? Definitely does not. It's written well but I can't stand how shallow the characters are. Jane Eyre, on the other hand, will forever be one of my favorite reads.)

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Let's Run Away to an Artist Colony

I finally finished all of my finals today!!! I'm very confident that I got A's in all of them...except Macroecon. I really have no idea where I stand with that class because he refused to post our grades all semester so...no one really knows. Either way, I'm just glad it's over. But, on a more cheerful note, I got my final portfolio for my poetry class back today and my professor loved my work! So that definitely made my day. =) Ahh writing classes...how I love you. 
I've also discovered why some of my classes, (such as calculus, political science, and economics) are so hard for me to focus on. They bore me. Eventually I force myself to study and do well but it takes a lot of self-control. Let me give you an idea of what yesterday, my day which was supposed to be devoted to studying, looked like:

Study for 15 mins
Sing for 30 mins
Study for 10 mins
Dance for 25 mins
Study for 12 mins
Jam out to The Beatles for 45 mins
Study for 3 mins
Study for 16 mins
Talk on the phone...and sing simultaneously
Study for .2 mins
Give up for the night

And I did all that by myself.
Because I'm just that cool.
I wonder what my neighbors think?

I wish I could tell you I was joking and that I actually sat down and studied hard without wasting any time...I cannot. That sort of hardcore studying didn't kick in until this morning and then I studied for 6 hours straight with only a 5 minute lunch break. I do well under pressure but until I hit panic mode? I'd much rather prance around my apartment singing and dancing.
My writing classes, on the other hand, I don't even need to give myself pep-talks for. I just love doing it. 

Speaking of writing, the strangest thing happened to me the other day. I wrote a 6 page paper in Spanish...and the next day when I went to write a paper for my Bio class...I couldn't. It was as if I'd forgotten how to write in English. After a few tries I got it and then everything went back to normal.

Today after finals my roommate and I decided to paint. 
Her awesome boyfriend (They really are too cute. Seriously, the way they look at each other? Ah. I die.) got her these super nice watercolors for Christmas and I, being the total moocher that I am, was able to enjoy them as well. She experimented with duct tape and made some pretty rad abstract art and I painted the nativity scene to look like those little willow tree people.
You know, kinda like this. Except not at all.Because I'm not that good. 
That's why I write, because my brush strokes are mediocre at best.

My roommate loves to paint and I love to write.
 I've decided that we need to run away to an artist's colony, if only for a few weeks.
How's that sound?
You could come too.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

I Almost Cried...and There Aren't Even Words

 I saw this for the first time over at the lovely Natasha's blog. 
Aw little, Heber! You were such a good child!
I love it!
Plus, I think it kinda goes well with "The Yellow Glove," no?!

Monday, December 12, 2011

Sorry I Suck

I've been sorta terrible at blogging the last few days. Sorry. Finals sorta suck my life away. 2 down, 3 to go! And the absolute worst one is tomorrow...Macroeconomics...Oh man...I should be studying right now. I think I'll do that after I take a nap. I need to make up for the lack  of sleep I've been imposing upon my body. Would you like to hear more about my awesome night? A macroecon assignment consisting of about 135 problems. A political science assignment. And a 6 page analytical Spanish paper. It was so much fun. I need to shower. And sleep. I'm gross. 
But before I do that...
Here's a shout out to my little sister over at happy as the sun. She's really awesome. And she's my best friend. And she's been having a pretty rough month. A lot of things changing in her life right now. Sapphire, if you're reading this, and I know you will be sometime within the next few days, hang in there. I love you. I'd take a bullet for you any time, any day and if I could make everything all better for you...you know I would. But time soothes everything...even the hardest goodbyes. Believe me, I know.
I'm going to miss you like crazy when I leave but I can't wait to come home for a couple of weeks before I fly out. =) I'll see you soon! Until then, I love you tons! Go read this blog or this blog if you want to laugh!

Other people I'm going to miss?
The rest of my family, of course.
My roommate when I leave....yeah.. A lot. We have so much in common! And the things that we don't have in common? I admire. I know I probably sound like I have a girl crush on her but, even though she's beautiful and has the prettiest eyes, I don't. I'm not a total creep. She's just my closest friend besides my family.
My singles ward.
All of my other friends here in Nebraska. (old and new)
Other friends who are also moving away this month. (there seems to be a lot of us)

But hey, I'll be back in Nebraska in June and back in Lincoln in August so until then I'll just be livin' the dream under the warm AZ sun! 19 days until I fly out...oh man oh man.

Now I am going to pass out for a few minutes until the studying must begin again. Otherwise I may fall right out of my chair.
Like that guy.

Friday, December 9, 2011

What the Heck, Rudolph?

Don't ask why I felt like showing you my clothes today...but I did.
Maybe it's because I'm proud to say I thrifted everything in this outfit. 
Except the skinny jeans. 
Those came from Target. 
I love that place.

Please disregard the awkward face. 
I don't really know what to do when taking pictures of myself.

Also, forgive the sucky photo quality.
My point and shoot and the crappy lighting in our apartment isn't really a good combination.
Oh and notice the nail-polish. 
I saw this color somewhere the other day and suddenly I had a craving to paint my nails that color.
A craving.
Like a food craving,
but for nail-polish.
It was strange.

On another note, tonight we watched that old Rudolph movie. 
The one that looks like a bunch of toys and is told by a snowman named Sam? 
The one in which the parents of Rudolph (Donner and Mrs. Donner) are jerks and Santa is a D-bag?
That's the one.
I haven't seen it in probably ten years and I didn't remember how stupid it was. Also, the whole movie is about adults forcing children to conform to the normalcy of society. On top of that it is chalk full of sexist comments. Mrs. Donner has no name and apparently she's a mute because the narrator has to tell us her lines even though Donner says all of his. And when they go to find their son Rudolph, after Donner is a terrible father and forces him to run away, Mrs. Donner isn't allowed to help because apparently that's "a man's job." And later on they all have to get back to Christmas town because it's necessary to get the women-folk back. 
Of course.

Feminists would have a hay day with that one.
As would the child protective services.
Also, why does Rudolph's nose have to make that annoying, high pitched beeping?
It's supposed to resemble a flashlight, not a radar.
Oh and the Island of Misfit Toys creeps me out.
And the little elf looks like an eight year old but sounds like he's thirty.
What the heck?

How did I ever watch that movie as a kid?

Now we're watching Princess Bride. 
This is much better.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Thanks, K-Stew!

Not a good public speaker? Wanna be "more good"? No problemo! 
Get some advice from the best actress of all time!
If you'd like to watch Kristen Stewart for real, go here and here (skip to about 1:50 in the second one).
 It's just about as entertaining.
And that, kids, is why you don't do drugs.

Which brings us to Breaking Dawn.
Ok now ya'll know I am a Twilight fan. Loved the books. The movies on the other hand? Could be better. Especially the last one...omygoodness don't even get me started on the scene where the werewolves are conversing.  Horrible. 
The whole time all I could think was "this reminds me of Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles." You know, the 80's cartoon? Except that was better. I actually like that. 
And the part where she has blood stained teeth? Gag me.
And, of course, when Edward bites right through her stomach to get the babyish-thing out of her. Was it really necessary to leave him covered in placenta for the rest of the movie? I think not. I wanted to throw up. 

But, because I read the books and am not a quitter, I will go to see part 2 when it comes out. 
Not because I want to. No, it's because now I'm obligated to finish them. 
Who knows. Maybe the next one will be better.
And for heavens sake, Kristen. Learn how to act one of these years, would ya?

I Must Be Half Guy.

Lady Gaga, anyone? 
*ba dum dum ching*
Okay now before you go judgin' let me explain myself. 
I seem to have a few man-ish tendencies. 

For example I:
  • Eat. A lot. Way more than most girls I know. 
  • Love working outside getting my hands dirty. I'd rather be outside working in a field or helping dad put on a roof than inside doing chores any day.
  • Have a pretty low voice and could sing bass better than some of the guys in my high school choir.
  • Walk away when I get mad. Five minutes later I've cooled down and I'm over it. Maybe ten in extreme cases.
  • Love cars. Some of my favorite smells include those of gasoline and old muscle cars. I love old cars and new cars. I love vehicles that aren't even cars at all. Here's my top 3 favorite *vehicles*, since, like I said, they aren't all cars.
1. The 1971 Plymouth Hemi Barracuda will forever be at the top of my list. With hood scoops. And a spoiler.  It is beautiful and perfect. It is fast and powerful. It is my dream car.

I realize that the spoiler is missing in this picture. Don't worry, I'd add it. Once I saved up $150,000 to get the car in the first place.

2. A Jeep Wrangler. I love jeeps. My friend had one and we cruised around in it with the top off and ahh...I die. I loved it! Another reason I'm clearly half guy. I don't mind my hair being whipped around in my face, in fact, I prefer it. I love driving with the windows down. My hair is a huge mess anyway, might as well embrace it. 
This one is obviously used but, truth be told, I like the old ones just as much as the new ones!

3.The Legend SS Chevy Camaro. I believe the 2010 is my favorite. Preferably black. Yess please...
Oh and just because I can't narrow it down quite that much...here's my 4th vehicle!!
The 2011 Lexus RX350 Crossover SUV
I have expensive taste I guess. 
That's why I am going to buy the jeep.
Because it's reasonably priced.
And I love it just as much.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Thank You, Strange Indian Man

Wanna hear a story from my Arizona trip? Sure ya do. It's weird. And let's be honest, who doesn't like weird stories?
So we, (my dad, my cousins, and I), decided we go check out the Tempe Festival of the Arts while we're there. The place was packed with people! And dogs. I think I missed the memo to bring my 50 dogs. Anyway, there were literally hundreds of booths set up displaying artists' paintings, photographs, jewelry, music, you name it, it's there. Oh yeah, also lots of food. Dad and I ate a huge bag of kettle corn by ourselves. Represent. So we're walking around and we start to hear this really pretty but really sad sounding music. Of course we're drawn to the mysterious sound and we stumble upon a booth where these native american guys are playing guitar and wooden flutes. They called themselves Inka Gold. So we sat there for, seriously, like 10 minutes listening to them play. Dad was awestruck but, quite honestly, I felt kinda awkward because one of the guys, 

the one on the left to be exact, kept staring at me. I occupied myself by admiring their assortment of leather bracelets. (I love.) Finally, we moved on to the next booth. Well before we left the festival dad said that he wanted to buy one of the wooden flutes that they had been selling so we weaved our way back through the tents, people, and dogs, and found good ol' Inka Gold. Wouldn't you know that the same guy from before flashed a big smile when he saw us approaching and waved me over. So, I walked over to him.
 "I saw you looking at these bracelets before. You like them don't you?" 
"Yeah," I replied, "they're really cool."
"Well," he said, "pick anyone you like. My gift to you. You are very beautiful."
"Well thank y...wait. What? Really?"
"Yes. Very beautiful. I will give you one. My gift to you."
So, I picked this one:
And he tied it on for me and I thanked him profusely.
The yellow leather bracelet. Not the colorful one, my little sister gave me the colorful one. Anyway, I love it. And it was super super nice but very....unusual. Thank you, strange Indian man. Thank you for your generosity and your kind words. Thank you for my new favorite accessory and a blog worthy story.

Monday, December 5, 2011


a) Arizona was grand! Love the little girls. Love the family in general. Love the flying down there. Love the heat. Love the fact that there are way more LDS members. What don't I love about it? Leaving my family and friends here. That shall definitely make me sad. I didn't realize how much I was going to miss my sister until I got back and saw her at the airport. *sob*

2) We finally have beautiful snow. It's going to be a white Christmas. =) And Stephanie and I set up our little tree and decorated our apartment with seasonal garb. It's adorable.

d) If you were a 90's kid, you need to read this, something else I found over at half&half. Love that blog. Anyway, read it. It's all so true. So perfect. And for the record, I still love N*SYNC and Fern Gully. And skydancers. Does anyone else remember those? I want some. I'm pretty sure I used to have like 30 from McDonalds. Also, I have a lot of old Lisa Frank notebooks still sitting around. If you don't, you were obviously not a true 90's child.

7) I smell popcorn. And I want to eat it. But I don't know where it's coming from.

p) I also feel like thrifting. I love thrifting.

i) After flying in last night I completed 2 macroeconomics assignments and a political science assignment before midnight. Then I started on my 13 pages of handwritten Spanish and worked on that until 1:30 am. Woke up at 6:30, continued writing for espanol until 11 am then took a quick shower and studied for an hour before running across campus to take a Spanish exam and turn in the 13 pages. I feel fairly accomplished for today.

R2D2) we have FHE tonight. I love FHE. Probably one of my favorite things.

3) Yes. I know these are in no particular order. I didn't feel like being organized.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

First Flight? Success!

So today I flew for the very first time, and I loved it! Quite a success if I do say so myself. I even signed in and did all of that myself before my dad met me at the airport. Felt like such a big girl! I came in and spent some time with my cousins and their little girls who I will start nannying in a month. I love them already! Sooo adorable. The rest of this weekend will be spent with them and I must admit, I'm pretty excited! We're going to go see a bunch of Christmas light shows and the temple all lit up and some art show. Holla! I feel really good about this decision. In honor of this lovely time my posts will probably stay pretty short and to the point so that I can spend more time with the awesome family I'll be living with!
Also, my guest post went up today so don't forget to go check it out!
Goodnight, lovelies!