One of my friends asked me the other day what I was most nervous about...I suppose there are two answers to that. My ridiculous answer? I'm a very confident, loud, outgoing person...but sometimes my inner 5 year old worries...What if I don't fit in? What if they don't like me? I know, I know, *sob sob.* But really, am I the only one who feels that way? I don't think so.
The other thing that makes me nervous is that I don't really know why I'm going. I just have prayed about it a lot and feel like that's what I should be doing. I mean, I know why I'm going logistically, but I don't know Heavenly Father's reasons. I may not know until I get there, I may not know for years after. Yet, I still wonder.
Am I going to gain more independence?
Am I going to prepare myself for motherhood?
Am I going to meet someone?
Am I going to save up money to go on a mission?
I just don't know. Maybe all of the above.By the way...did I tell you I was considering going on a mission? I might. =) I mean, I'm very strongly considering it. We'll see what I learn from Arizona. I'm just givin' ya'll a heads up...it's a very good possibility that I may not be writing on here for 18 months come next fall. Who knows? Not me. Lots of hardcore praying is in store for this girl.